this is something i realized about myself.

i learned that forgiveness is the key to freedom. before that, confession is required.

confessing is hard. living a lie or living in shame and guilt has got to be the worst feeling ever. it actually corners you and pushes you back to become a person you dont really want to be and a live a life you dont want. thats why you confess. you ask for forgiveness to those whom you did wrong. 

but sometimes, you are guilty of a more greater thing, something confessing to someone wont really fix... 

anyways - forgiving others is easy. asking for forgiveness from God is easy too, as long as you mean it. but what i find is the most difficult is forgiving yourself.

forgiving myself.. someone told me that i have to tell myself that 7x77 times over. and really just be thankful for God's forgiveness.

i was a fool to let you go.