things i have experienced while i was in Texas that i have not in NY:

-The sheer amount of Vietnamese people. If I didn’t know better, I would think I was in Vietnam.
-For the first time, I had the pleasure of mowing the lawn and using both lawnmower and weedwacker. It was fun the first time, now it sucks balls.
-The average highway MPH is around 80-90 while NY it’s around 60-70.
-I got my first Fire Ant bite. Now I know why they’re called Fire Ants.
-Usually, when you turn on the water, cold water comes first as you wait a couple of seconds for the warm water to come out. Here HOT water comes out first and you wait longer for the COLD water to come. Weird..
-So many Walmart’s. The place has EVERYTHING
-One creature comfort, the Air Conditioner, is one of mans best invention! It is so frikken HOTTTTT here. SO HOT.
-I never looked forward to COLD showers. But now I love them. Feels so good

-There is a CHINESE FOOD drive through. For the fat texans.

-Different foods. For example, Kolaches or a spicy/sour mexican lollipop x-x
-Around new years, they sell fireworks for really cheap. Fun stuff.
-There is a bar in the movie theater. First one I went to I got Henesey on the rocks.
-I’ve done some illegal dumping. Major.
-I’ve worked in the attic before. Also hot as balls in there. 

The list will go on.

On another note – i realize this is the first year in which: i haven’t gone to any church retreats, will be missing a volleyball tournament for memorial day, haven’t been to bethpage park. oh and no school whatsoever =)

one can dream all they want. but if they really want it, they’ll go for it. 

i want to reach my goal but i see so many obstacles. i see so many opportunities where ill contemplate giving up. but this is my discretion and pre-game prep. 

get your shit together and don’t ever give up!! don’t be a quitter you fuck

i don’t have a doubt that in the near future i will find myself a nice girl and settle down. it isn’t my top priority because i finally see that love is something i cannot rush. i learn from my past relationships that if i rush into something, it ends badly. right now, all i can say is that i have faith in God that my career and my love will fall into place

HOWEVER, these are the things i want in my girl -

a beautiful smile that makes me want to cherish her.
above average smart girl. quick and witty.
im short so someone not taller. just as tall is okay.. i guess..
not afraid to speak her mind!!
esp. when it comes to sex! i like sex so she must like sex.

i give off an abnormal amount of body heat. im always embarrassed to hold a girls hands because they get clammy.

because of all the exercise i do, i give off MORE heat!! jesus

swimming, running, and lifting weights. because of my muscles, my body is just too hot … …

I think I live in an era where holiness and righteousness are thrown away easily. The very meaning of life and love can be easily replaced by something else.

In an era of instant gratification, all the meaningful things are VEILED. People are distracted by consumer goods – people turn to money, to work and buy things, hoping it will bring happiness (it certainly can, in some ways). But I see it as a tragedy. 

This is how I see it – people are willing to sell their very own soul for material goods. In a world where logic, reason, and tangible things take priority, our very own souls are overlooked because of all the shiny “cool” new things dangling in front of us. Thank advertisement, media, and consumerism for that – for turning some people into mindless consumers brainwashed to think a NEW PHONE, a BMW, and a hot ass girl means your set.

What good is it if one gains the whole world and its treasures only to lose his or her own very soul?

I don’t want to sell my soul. Is there a point of no return?

stop right there. that’s exactly where I lost it. see that line? i never should have crossed it.

today, i made a huge investment towards my future.. submitted my application and $1000 dollars deposit. this time around, its using my own hard earned money, and really investing my time for something i want to learn

starting today, i am on a journey to become to very best. that no one ever was. and this time, im hoping that things fall into place as i trust God with my future.

Journeyman Luthier-to be. May 2014

Be certain the steps of left and right don’t fight the direction of upright

it was gray and wet. gray skies filled with flashes of lightning followed by the clapping of thunder. all you see are the rain droplets ramming into things, leaving nothing untouched. a howl flows through the air, making all flora sway side to side. 

there is something eerie about walking outside while its down-pouring, into an empty street. there was no presence of another soul in sight. with just my shorts on and my sandalias, i enter the stage. i then proceed to run around aimlessly getting soaked head to toe. my neighbors lawn is overflowing, a welcoming sight to my kid-at-heart self. i rise against gravity and stomp the **** out of that puddle. at the end of the driveway there is another lake. i jump in that one too. i run to the rain drain/gutter thing and stand under there, as if taking a shower. i look up and still no one is around. run back into the house.

liberating, really. my 3 minutes of freedom.

i finally have a clear goal and passion i want to pursue. 

to become a luthier.

thank you, God.